The sun came out today, and finally, there was hope. Three hours on the beach did the boys and I a world a good. They went into the ocean, a balmy 58 degrees, and played in the waves.

I wanted so badly to go to downeast, go out on the boat, catch fish, watch birds but it was not to be. It's hard to make someone as sick as my sister is go "camping" for a few days- and that's what it is up there.

I mentioned there will be spiders, and her face dropped- I knew it was pushing it too much.

The new dog is a sweetheart and is very calm. She's been great to have around and most definitely makes my sister happy to have at least a piece of her life here.

No more news from Georgia, thank god. Manfriend has disappeared down there and I have made it very clear that if he shows up here? I'm calling the cops. There is no discussion.

My world, my rules.

I read that Sarah Palin is resigning- how many people think that she made a deal to not get prosecuted for something, raise your hands.

Another gay soldier was killed at Camp Pendleton. The Navy has nothing to say about it. Sean Kennedy's killer was released after one year in jail. Obama promised we will be happy as a community at the end of his term- help the queers when it's all done, huh?

Tell Sean Kennedy's mom that.

It's going to take me a while to find my bearing again. So much is going on and I'm a structure lovin' gal- I don't have any right now. It's stressful. But next weekend is the annual Moms Weekend in Ogunquit- all of us gather together to eat, drink, laugh, and tell stories. fifteen people crammed into one small house- it is glorious.

I took a moment on the beach today, closed my eyes and remembered all the good in my life, as the boys played around me a game of rowdy pushing/pulling/twirling. Great friends, a world filled with kindness.

I am blessed.

Just a little on edge.