Sara Whitman

No, I don't need a uniform for my falafel

Filed By Sara Whitman | January 08, 2010 9:30 AM | comments

Filed in: Living
Tags: fetish sex, life goals, on vacation, ride the wave, uniforms

I do so love a uniform. I'm sure it has something to do with deep seated issues with authority but I don't want to delve too deeply in it. I want to be able to smile when I see a woman in a crisp, fancy uniform.

Sometimes, perhaps, we need to not be such deep thinkers.

I spent a lot of time on vacation wondering about what I'm doing with my life. The kids kept teasing me that I have no job, and I am always on vacation. It stung. I thought maybe it would be better if I took a job somewhere, anywhere.

What am I doing with my life? What have I accomplished? Just a blogger, Zachary kept saying over and over. Not really a job, not something to take vacation from...

Ouch.

I sat on the beach and looked out to the waves for some kind of answer. Over and over, they simply crashed to the shore. Then Jake came, jumped on my shoulders and said, C'mon, Mom! Let's ride the waves!

That's it, I finally realized. It's not about having some great, defined answer. Not for me. Jeanine? She's on a track, wants a PhD, has specific goals for herself. I never have.

Except to be a good parent. A good partner and friend.

The goal is not to study from the beach, but to get in there and ride with my kids. Count three heads bobbing back up after a big, crashing twelve foot wave. I don't have all the answers as to why I am the way I am. I don't know that I ever will. But if I spend too much time thinking, I'll never live.

I do want a uniform with my falafel. I love a uniform. And riding big waves.


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THIS made me **smile**
How very refreshing... I could almost smell the ocean reading it.

Sara, you obviously don't need this advice from me, but sometimes it is good to state the obvious: Even in today's world with women taking their careers so seriously, there's nothing wrong with being a "stay-at-home Mom" --- as long as your family is getting along OK financially, and that arrangement is OK with both you and your spouse.

The rest is all about the question, "If I stay on this path, when my life is drawing to a close will I feel like I missed something?"

And only a few minutes with the ocean waves can tell you the answer to that question. Just keep listening to the waves.

"Just a blogger?"

I'd like to register a complaint with young Jake.

Our relationship mirrors yours, Sara. I'm the wave rider and Jerame is the methodical planner.

Cathy Renna Cathy Renna | January 8, 2010 5:50 PM

Sara - this is why I love you so much (besides your butchness and ability to order well in a restaurant) - you actually DO so much for the community - you are an activist. you may not get paid for it, but you do work......

Just a blogger? No, Jake, your mom is a voice and model for Moms like her everywhere. Young Lesbian mothers(I am an old Lesbian mother)

Cathy Renna Cathy Renna | January 8, 2010 9:09 PM

Sara - this is why I love you so much (besides your butchness and ability to order well in a restaurant) - you actually DO so much for the community - you are an activist. you may not get paid for it, but you do work......

Joan McBride | January 9, 2010 8:25 AM

Sara, Shining Shero in a goofy cap, just a Mom, just a blogger, just a good partner and friend. You have touched me so deeply at times; you have lead me into wonderous places within myself. You have dared to speak, nay, shout your name, your doubts (shared by so many of us) and fears. The world of this old radical feminist trans-lesbian Mom is richer and braver and deeper for you having touched it. Thank you, Namaste', Joani..."just a blogger. Piffle!

thank you all... you made me smile.

my mom skills are being put to a big test this weekend... stay tuned.